If I could give one piece of advice to an incoming CM, I would say never believe what anyone says about which month is the worst or when things get better. You’ll hear things like “October is the worst month” and “Everything gets better after winter break.” Well I’m here to tell you that for me, these kinds of comments have not predicted anything about my teaching career. January has been the worst month. Things didn’t get better after break. In fact, my mood has gotten worse as I’ve come to realize that things just are not going to get better. Now I know what you’re thinking, “Of course they won’t get better if you think they won’t,” but that’s just where I am right now.
My school is a miserable place. When people hear where I work, their reactions confirm my experience. I get no support. My students don’t respect me. No one is happy. I hate going to work and count down the minutes until the day is done. My second period class is just a madhouse, and not just for me but for all of the teachers. There are students in there who have been expelled and gotten sent back by pupil services. Today I thought about quitting for the first time since September.