So I’ve been thinking a lot today about the fact that, even though things are going better with my grade level and subject change, I’m still not happy. Should I be happy? Is that a reasonable expectation? I hate coming home to work and having a one day weekend. I spend Sunday working and I spend at least two hours a night working and/or stressing about work. Will it get easier? Will I start to enjoy this? I hope so. I really don’t want to spend two years as an unhappy person. But at the same time I don’t know what I’d be doing if I weren’t doing this. Second years, when did you become happy? Did you ever become happy? Are you happy now?